Pamper Yourself

Hello Everyone!

Overall I think about going shopping and treating myself way more than I ever do. I just don't make time for it. Or put any time aside to pamper myself for the day. I just go about doing my routine.

 I work quite a lot and I just put my money into a savings account and rarely see the money I earn. However recently I had a complete hair disaster and eventually it went green!! 

 I was so upset and so glad I didn't have anything coming up which required me to look even mildly presentable. So obviously I had to get it sorted or I would risk looking like I was ready to audition for Wicked. I booked in at a local salon and was so excited to finally feel like myself again.

 It was the one day of the week I didn't have work so I got an early appointment mainly due to the excitement of feeling like myself again. After the appointment I felt like Carrie Bradshaw from Sex In the City the movie when she dyes her hair brown. I have never felt that confident before in my appearance, ever! So I decided with my day off to go to a local shopping centre and I came out with a few new things ready for my holiday. 

 The whole day was brilliant and I was on cloud nine! I realized that taking some time out to just do a few things like having your hair done or buying something new can change your outlook completely. I have felt like I belong in Sex In the City ever since and I can't express enough how much better it is than feeling like you belong on a broom with a crazy cat by your side. 

Thank you for reading my ramblings and just try and find some time for yourself this week!

Love,

Phoebe Eve

A Little Less Chipper.

Hello Again!

I have so far been awful at this whole blogging thing but at some point I will write a post a week and I will have a day where my posts go up and everything will be fabulous. But I haven't posted because I haven't really felt like myself.

 There is just something I want to discuss really. I know I don't have a crazy comments section or that many people reading due to my lack of posts and my lack of continuity. But either way this is where I like to put my feelings. I read Girl Online by Zoella in the week and it's made me realize how wonderful the blogging world can be. I understand that it is fictional, it just made me feel like I could perhaps post something a little less chipper than usual.

 Sometimes I am a complete and utter idiot. I do things and say things that I know are out of line and I know can perhaps push people away and anger them but I say or do them anyway.  I just don't understand why. I seem to do it particularly to those closest to me, pushing them away and being occasionally offensive in some ways. 

  The last thing I would want to do is loose these people or see them hurt by anyone, especially if I am causing the upset or hurt. Perhaps it is because I love these people so much that I know they can take it and still stick by me. But it is no excuse to treat a person like that. 

  Don't get me wrong I also love to show the ones I love how much I love them through little surprises and  maybe baking them something I know they enjoy. On the whole I am like that about ninety percent of the time. However this little stupid ten percent comes out and causes chaos. I just want to know that other people behave like this too sometimes. I am sure I won't have an answer as to why I do it but I just want to know I am not completely insane.

 Thank you for reading my random ramblings and please comment if you do something similar, I would appreciate it immensely. I will be back to my chipper self soon I promise.

Love,

Phoebe Eve

Handling Rejection

This past week I have found out that I am not going to be attending a drama school in September and will have to experience the audition process all over again come October time. It's not been the easiest news to digest but I have turned things around into a positive.

Here are a few tips I want to share on how to face rejection and turn it around so you can look positively onto the situation instead of being negative.

1) Have a day to get all your emotions out about what has happened

2) Plan out your next move and what work needs to be done so you can succeed. 

3) Make lists of what work needs to be done over the next coming weeks and be active with them.

4) Start the process again, whether it's a job interview, an audition, ucas application or maybe even blogging. It can be anything.

I just feel that life is too short to dwell on the bad, when in fact something amazing may be around the corner. Things to happen for a reason we just need to give it time to find out what that reason is. I know life can throw some crappy things at you and you do need time to deal with them, but just also let yourself turn it around.

Be Happy!

Love,

Phoebe Eve

The Wonders of Timehop

Hello to anyone that happens to be reading!

I was just scrolling through timehop, as you do and I was reminded of this blog that I had actually forgotten I had. I started this about two years ago when I was going through some changes in my life and was struggling with a few things. The main issue at the time was my anxiety.

Honestly, I had never experienced it before and it was a big shock to me when I experienced my first panic attack. Since then I have still had some up's and downs but to be honest I can, on the whole, control it now.

But when i was reading through my old posts i was reminded of how much I actually loved writing posts, even if no one was reading. It was just something for me where i could speak freely and get my feelings out somewhere. 

In the past two years I have finished school (happy dance) and have been trying to get into drama school so I can continue my dream of becoming an actor. I have had some really great experiences since I finished school and I am auditioning for drama schools all over again. But overall, I have learnt a lot and these things I would like to share with you. 

To motivate myself to write posts again I am going to set the task of writing a post a week, if you are reading this and would like me to write about something or answer a question please let me know and I would be happy to do so. I'll be back next Sunday!

Love,

Phoebe Eve 

New Year!

Hello, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a great new year! I wanted to chat about a few things in this post like my new year’s resolution, my memory jar (featured in my first ever post) and aims for the year ahead.

This year I have made a resolution and it is to do what makes me happy, weather that is changing my style, working out more at the gym, seeing more of the people I love. I just think that last year wasn’t as good as it could have been and in order to change that I am just going to do what makes me happy, regardless of what other people think. I’m not talking about crazy things; just simple things that I know will make me happier and get the most out of the year ahead. Being happy isn’t a hard thing to achieve, I have mentioned previously that surrounding yourself with good, honest people can really help. Also by reminding yourself of the little things in life can also bring your mood up. If you have a new year’s resolution then please feel free to leave it below!

 The memory jar I mentioned a long time back in March has been opened! I added to it every time something special happened that I didn’t want to forget and when I opened it I had so many memories. It was nice to relive them all and think back to different times in the year. However, I feel that my notes weren’t that detailed and this year I am going to change that. I am going to write down a good thing that happened every day. So even if it’s a really bad day, I can find the goodness within it, in order to achieve this I may need a bigger jar, haha!

  Finally just some goals for next year are to be more productive with my blog because whenever I sit down and make time to write one I do really enjoy it and find it rather therapeutic. I also want to keep up with chatty posts like this one but also keep some style posts in there too. My other goal is to just let go a bit more and not worry so much about silly things, I feel that if I let go and just have more fun I will enjoy life that little bit more.

If you enjoyed the post please comment below and also give me any requests for a post that you would like me to do! Love, Phoebe Eve <3

Cheeky Update!

Hello Everyone! I hope you are all getting excited about Christmas, I know I am. However, I do have a lot of things on at the moment, one of them being my first audition! Eeek! I am rather nervous but also very excited to show them what I’ve got and I hope they see that I am passionate about Drama and it’s all I want to do. Hopefully my crazy side won’t come over though!

  I just wanted to say I do have some Christmas blog ideas planned but at the moment I don’t have much time to create them all. But as soon as I have done the audition I will do some more posts! Also some cheeky look books are coming up which I am very excited to make. So I hope you are all having a wonderful time counting down to Christmas and I shall post as soon as I can. Love You, Phoebe Eve <3

A Turning Point

Recently I have been applying for drama schools and preparing myself for auditions, letting myself get stressed out about choosing my pieces in time.  Then one day I was on my way to town and sitting on the bus listening to music and I realised, I am going for it. That ‘dream’ I have had for years and the yearning to be on stage I am attempting to make a reality. For years I have wanted one thing. To do what I love and I am going for it. Go me! It’s scary, I am crapping myself at the idea of auditioning for the schools but I’m doing it.

  I am excited at the prospect of performing to the panels in the auditions, they decide my future. I could get in to one of the schools which would be insane, I am just so excited. This process may be crazy, scary and overwhelming but I will make the most out of it and push myself.  I may get stressed, I may get a bit teary but no matter what happens, I will try my absolute hardest to make it happen. My family and friends think I can do it and finally, I think I can too!

  I like keeping myself busy and I am currently writing a monologue about how women are objectified in society. I was struggling with ideas and then Lily Allen came onto the scene with her new song ‘Hard out Here’. It is amazing; she just says everything that needs to be said. Women are constantly made to look like sexual objects within the media and she just takes the mick out of the new videos out at the moment.  One of my favourite lines is “You should probably lose some weight
'Cause we can't see your bones”. Magazines plaster photos of skinny women who have the ‘perfect body’ and you know what? It’s a load of shit. So what if a woman isn’t a size six? We don’t need to be as long as I am happy with myself I don’t care what anyone else thinks.

 I am so inspired to start my monologue and speak some truth and start my auditions, I feel like my life is starting and you know what? I am so excited to see what it has in store! Please comment below telling me all about your goals or just something you’re excited about! Love Phoebe Eve <3