Make It Mine

Hello, I am back to my cheery and glass-half-full self now but I hope you enjoyed my more personal blog last week. It wasn’t the easiest blog to write but after learning that so many others have experienced anxiety and panic attacks it made me feel a lot better about things. As I have finished the glorious times of exams and revision I have two whole weeks to have fun with my friends. So I have planned something for every day and I have so much to look forward to.

  Plus I have decided to do something very out of character and join a gym, which if you know me sounds completely crazy. This is due to the fact I will find as many excuses as possible not to work out and not to exercise. But a local gym had a free weekend so me and my friend went to check it out. It was amazing. I have never thought gyms could be enjoyable, but I tried out loads of equipment, including a thing that vibrated when you stood on it… yeah I didn’t use that for long. Overall my trip was very enjoyable and I really want to join over the summer as I just think it would be fun. I mean it would be nice to just tone up a bit and be able to run a few meters without falling to the floor, gasping for air.

  Now, on to the chosen quote, this week is from a Jason Mraz song called ‘Make It Mine’ and it is such a happy and upbeat song I felt it deserved a post. After the horrible time I had during my exams, I just want to have fun and laugh with my friends. They as I have mentioned are the best things in my life, as well as family, and I just need to spend as much time with them as I can before we have to go back to school. So my next two weeks consist of laughs, fun and birthday cake, as it is my birthday soon!!

  I want to get out of this horrible habit I seem have to adopted recently of worrying about every little thing. So by going out and being around the ones I love I feel like I can achieve this and I will make it all mine. Also I have been listening to a lot of hairspray recently as I love the musical and have played Tracy once; I had to wear a fat suit and everything! Looking back I did look ridiculous but performing is the best thing for my confidence, to show others that I am talented and play a pretty good Tracy Turnblad, haha! But hearing all the songs again made me a little emotional because they carry a lot of memories for me. Especially ‘Welcome To The 60’s’ as its mine and my mums song that we dance to in the kitchen.

 

 

  Thinking back to performing has made me more driven to get my school to put on a showcase, I need to perform and get my confidence back. I’m sure you have one of those things that gives you butterflies in your stomach, just by thinking about it. Performing is mine. As I step onto the stage the lights are shining a down on me, so bright that I can only see the front row of the audience and feeling waves of adrenalin whenever the audience laugh.  Describing the feeling you get after performing, knowing you’ve done well, is so hard to explain but all I can say is nothing compares to it.

  Please comment below telling me all about what you want to make your own and what the one thing that makes you feel infinite is! I’ll be interested to hear, thank you for reading my about my crazy aspirations and let me know all about yours. If like me you haven’t had the opportunity to do the things you love then make it happen and make it yours. Love Phoebe Eve <3