Believe In Yourself

Hello, just wanted to put in an extra little post this week, thought I would treat my lovely readers! Also because this quote is something I always preach but never actually do, I should learn to take my own advice really. But as my anxiety has been getting the better of me and really brining me down recently and I find believing in myself is one of the hardest challenges to face.

  I am surrounded by supportive and amazing people who believe in me and always compliment me, which is so lovely to hear. I just don’t seem to grasp it all, I listen, I smile, it even makes my day, but I still can’t believe it. From my anxiety I have sadly begun to doubt myself, weather I can get the grades, or I’m a good enough friend to those around me. I understand how important it is to believe in yourself but it’s harder than it sounds. If you read my last blog post you will see I have set up some goals for myself, which is all to boost my confidence. Through sharing my passions and showing people what I can achieve, makes me believe my future plans are achievable. I have even set myself up for a rather scary step, which if it goes well I shall share with you, for now it’s a little secret.

  I want my confidence back and I feel by achieving the mini goals I set myself in my last blog post I can be back to my positive and happy self again. What I have learnt recently is that things take time and sadly I have no fairy godmother who can wave her wand, or a crab called Sebastian who can show me the way (Little Mermaid reference). I know now achieving the goal to self-belief is something I have to do on my own, but I’m going to try my hardest to do it. Thank you again for reading my ramblings, I love you all, see you soon! Phoebe Eve <3

The Future

Hello hello hello! So I am now seventeen which is rather awesome but also rather scary, knowing I only have one year left at school. It only hit me a few days after my birthday, which was lovely and I was surrounded by friends and family; the day included lots of shopping, cake and cat cards. I am just going to say a massive thank you to all of my friends and family who made it special because I had such a magical two days!

  Now back to the future, a few days after my birthday I came to realise I only have one year left with my friends at my school. I still have some time left at school as I have finally finished exams but we have to go back to start our second year of alevels. But thinking that there is only one year left, scares me. I know what I want to do after school which is such a great thing to know as a lot of my friends don’t, so I am lucky in that respect. It’s just knowing that all the amazing people I am surrounded by every day, won’t be there in a year’s time.

 

  Growing up is a part of life and it has to be done but the past few months I have truly learnt who are my best friends and who can support me through anything. But knowing that I won’t be surrounded by them in a year is rather unsettling. I have never been a person who is shy and finds it hard to settle in to a new environment, but I don’t really want to grow up yet. When I get to that stage it will be amazing and I will find new friends it’s just that it has always been years away and now it’s getting closer.

  Focusing on the year ahead is going to be the most important step so I have decided to set myself some goals to achieve over the next year, including the summer holidays, I shall list them below:

   1.   Create a showcase to show off the awesome drama talent at my school and use this event to raise money for charity.

   2.       Go and see more shows and get involved with a drama community in my area for further experience on my CV.

  3.       Have as much fun as possible with my friends and take photos or mementos of really great days that I can then put together into a book to look back on in future.

  If you are in a similar position as me and you are coming up to the last year of alevels or gcses or anything really, then make a list like me and comment them below so I can see them all! Love, Phoebe Eve <3